The moment

And there it was…  I felt it completely…. That moment of being in the moment, of joy, of stopping and appreciating everything around me.  It was life in slow motion.  In the rush around at seeding time of year it was a breath of fresh air, and you know what, it was not some momentous occasion.  It was just normal everyday life.

I was sitting in the tractor cab while my husband was working on the drill, my father in law was outside talking to little J who had just been dropped off by the bus.  I was watching all of this through the window of the tractor and just felt so truly blessed.  The sun was shining, my family was around me and all was so right in the world at that moment.

The days since have been full as we are still in the field and have a few cows still calving but I keep coming back to that moment.  It is a reminder to me to just enjoy each moment, no matter how busy or stressful it seems.  This is life, so live it… Enjoy it.

Photography

In the last couple of years I have rekindled my love of photography.  I have started taking some classes and I am really enjoying all that I am learning.  I will post some of my pics on here.  This picture was taken the other day when we asked the guys from our community pasture to come and rope a calf so it could be treated.

Loss

In the last year I have heard of a couple of people in my community losing their children to accidents.  I can’t even begin to imagine the pain they are feeling, it crushes me to even think about this happening to my family.  I wrote this tonight:

LOSS

How do you go on after a loss like that,
Knowing your arms will no longer hold him tight,
No way to tuck him in where he’s gone,
No more kisses goodnight.

I don’t want to feel that pain ever,
Though I feel it deep in my heart,
A life not fully lived, cut short
Before it really had time to start.

I don’t know you at all,
As a parent my heart feels your pain,
Knowing your life has to go on,
Never to be the same.

I don’t know where you’ll find solace,
I hope it gets easier day by day,
Know there’s an angel watching over you,
Guiding you, helping you find your way.

Why do these things happen,
No one really knows,
Remember him in your heart,
As your family grows.

Those near to you grieve also,
Though we will never understand,
The strength and courage it will take,
Do the best you can.

How will you go on from here.
Only you can decide,
Don’t lose yourself, love yourself,
Love others, don’t hide.

Love to all those parents who have lost a child to soon🌾

The crazies

I was going to start this entry with how much things have changed in the last year the realized that is not what I want to write about today.

WARNING: the following content is about GIRL stuff!!!!😊 Why is it at nearly 40 years old I still get the crazies sometimes at that time of the month.  It doesn’t happen every time (thank goodness), but every once in awhile the need to buy something, the need to eat all the junk food in sight, the mood swings, the need to write poetry about how grateful I am for my life and family and the need to fall down in a heap and cry my eyes out all happen at once.  It doesn’t matter what vitamins I take, how much sleep I get or how things are going in my day it just all comes on at once.

YES to any men that made it this far into the post, I am admitting that the period crazies are real and you best duck if you get to close with that smirk and I told you so grin or I will wipe the grin right off your face….oh wait!… where are you going, you know I love you baby… Now give me your ice cream and your wallet, I feel the need to shop!!!! Oy vey!!!!